I selfharmed everyday about two years ago, and didn’t for the longest timer ever. I’ve relapsed, and I’m now cutting multiple times a day. I can’t figure out my future, and people expect me to figure it out NOW, to choose NOW. I can’t, I can’t even talk well to people and express myself normally. I hate myself more than ever before. I hate my body and soul. I just want peace to figure things out, but I’m only allowed to go fast forward.