So tired of spending everyday setting up perfect happy days for my man and kids
And never getting what I want ….just someone who want to
Be with me ….tired of spending every night hopeing you will
Touch me or want me ….sooo over the rules that keep me here
Alone with no one …if u don’t want to pay attion to me then …why can’t
I have another (person ) ….all u need and desire in life is
Stupid video games …we r 33 …I don’t want to watch u play video games
!!! I don’t want to spend each day wish I was doing greater things
Especally when I have the time,money ,and means to do what I please ..
So in the past I was wondering a little …I never fucked anyone …just need
Attention u were giving me ….u knowed my tooth out and I
Needed this trama not to pass (like all the rest ) without telling someone
…I didnt leave u …or have some other man knock u out …
I just needed to know someone out there knew my struggles and
Needed to know I still ‘had it’ …the ‘it’ that all women still want to have ….desire from another human ….and I was sorry and I ve became the sad prisoner u love …
Serving u and dote n on u …make n ur dinner …s*** n ur d*** …I don’t ask fir
Anything ….I just want while u sleep all day (cause u were up
All night playing video games) to go see other people …like friends …
Which u say is fine if they were girls ….but they r not !
I mean if I had friends that were girls id be chill n with them
Like all day all night
But I got guy friends …and u r afraid I tell them how terrible u are …
But I wouldnt …u yhink I ll s*** their dicks …but news flash -i don’t
Even like s*** n urs so…that not gonna happen ….
I wish I had a gay girl friend …and I could be with her ….I ve always been bi …but
I wish I had just gone girl cause no lesbian wants a
Old d*** fucker ….god …just so bored and lonely and I can’t
Fo anything about it that won’t hurt or upset u …which j don’t
Want to do ….just want to be happy too ….just want to laugh
And have people laugh at my jokes .. and listen when I talk
To let my gaurd down and have fun ….had kids at 20 and now
I’m 33 ….13 years locked in a house ….I ve lost myself …my mind …
My joy ….my confidence….. I ve pretty much lost everything about me
….I can’t go on this way ….but I have no outlet ….lost and alone forever …
