Recently I’ve gotten out of an unhealthy relationship.
My way of coping with it was finding a new person to be obsessed with which in fact worked wonders. I’m not proud of the fact that i make everything awful,(stalking as in secretly taking pictures,personal information etc.) you could say unhealthy even, but i just can’t help it.
Anyways, I’ve met this girl and we (i know her longer) know each other for a few months already. She’s really pretty and i liked her from the start. However, I’ve never gotten the impression that she could and would ever like me back. But guess what? She confessed to me. I still can’t believe it. It has definitely made things easier for me and while I’m really excited I’m also terrified and feel guilty. I must admit, talking about our feelings is giving us both a pretty hard time, but that’s to be expected. She’s never been in a relationship before and I’m scared of myself, of the expectations she has for me and everything else. I did and said some pretty messed up s***, but what if I’m right? I just don’t think her feelings are genuine. She doesn’t even know what she wants and i don’t think she knows me that well. I myself don’t know what I want. I don’t know anything. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know why I wrote all this, but i do know that i don’t want to lose her. So I’m just going to hope for the best. If you’ve read to the end thank you for your time.