I’m 11 years old living in the US.
my life has been really hard for me this past year. I had to move schools, find a group of friends that accepted me, and i had to adapt to the learning environment.
when i made friends with a group of girls at my new school, i tried to completely leave my past life (old friends, old interests, etc.) behind. I unfriended my old friends on Roblox and stopped talking to them. i went my whole year at the new school not thinking about them. during that school year, i think i destroyed my life. I got mentally destroyed by a toxic friend. and i coped with all the feelings of suicide by myself in silence.
i did not have a good last year. i think my childhood is officially ruined. i started cussing and talking about people behind their back. i started to become more emotional as well. i even went on discord behind my parents back and spoke to people that i didn’t know. i got into a lot of drama and lots of rumors were spread about me.
I’ve only now emailed my old friends from my old school. I’m waiting on them to respond. i made a huge apology to them for being a terrible person and ghosting them.

i hate my life and myself. i hope that someone sees this and knows that this happened to me.