What I usually feel is absolutely nothing at all which includes me not feeling any happiness at all. Another thing is that I have done morally wrong and/or illegal things in the past and don’t feel any guilt or shame for those actions. I am someone who experiences urges to harm and kill others. Not only do I feel no happiness but I also don’t feel shame or guilt for my actions. Hell, I have even looked at messed up, illegal types of p*** online and don’t regret it. I think that it is best for me to die.