I’ve been dating this girl that has been my #1 priority, my prized possession, my obsession, everything you can say on how in love you are with someone, for over a year now. Known her for more than 4. I had been very depressed and suicidal before this relationship and she took it away for a while but it’s back again worse than ever. I tell my girlfriend how much I just want to die or kill myself. She’s ripped a belt noose off my neck. Wow do I wish I died that night. You would think your significant other would really help you and be very understanding in a time like this. But not my girlfriend. She says she can’t worry about me and herself, that I’m crazy, need help, this that an the third. Other than the time with the belt they have mostly been cries for help which she refuses to help but actually make it worse. She told me she didnt care if I died. I took over 16 pills infront of her she told me to go outside and die there because she didn’t want to be involved with the cops. This girl turned me into a drug addict, I will do anything to please her. I use to promise myself NEVER touch anything but weed but this wasn’t even considered with her on my mind. I will do anything to make her happy and to keep her in my life. Call me clingy, crazy whatever you want but I’m in love with someone that could careless if I dropped dead this second.

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