I don’t know what this will do, but I have no one I can confess to in real life, so I thought I would give this a shot to see if it might help. Some would call me a s** addict, and perhaps that is what I am. All I know is that I am out of control when it comes to seeking out women with whom I can have s** with.

I have been married for 27 years. My first attempted s***** encounter with someone other than my wife (fiance at the time) occurred two weeks before we were married. I went to a bar, met a woman and went home with her. We fooled around and the only reason we did not have s** is that she was reluctant.

Two weeks after my wedding, I sent my wife on a spiritual retreat. I went to a large city near where we lived and sought out a s****** club that allowed entrance to single males. It was an off premises club, meaning you met people and then went to have s** at a hotel or someone’s home.

I wound up that night at a home with four women and four guys. It was a wild night. Since that time I have meet women through phone chat lines and Internet sites numerous times — probably close to a hundred times. I now primarily frequent prostitutes.

Each time I meet with a woman and have an o*****, I feel horrible and guilty. I tell myself I will never do it again. The longest I have gone in the past 27 years without seeking out a strange women for s** is, I think, maybe six weeks.

I am here confessing because yesterday I left my home and met a prostitute that I have been with a couple of weeks ago. She is very attractive and has a private residence where she sees clients. I have to say the place, while clean, is really a dump.

When I met her, she got naked and gave me incredible oral s**. I had an o***** in no time. When she left the room the quilt was overwhelming. Though I had paid to spend an hour with her, I had to leave. I told her that I had received a text and must leave.

I feel so guilty. I want to stop. I have tried S** Addicts Anonymous, but in only helped a little. It did not work fully, in part, because I would not be totally honest with the group. I never used my real name. My profession makes me a very high profile figure in the state where I live.

I so regret the time and money I have wasted, not to mention the risks I have taken and damage I have done to my soul. I don’t exactly what to do, but I want to desperately to quit.

Please pray for this lust dominated soul to be free.