I cant sleep. Every single night, i want to be in peace, just close my eyes and tune right into slumber, but i just cant. At night i cant breathe, i cant think, i go crazy. So many thoughts fluster my mind i feel like i am being drowned by sorrow, though many times my problem is that i cant catch my breath. I am the kind of person who grasps for air every minute because otherwise i feel like my lungs are being flooded with water. Its painful because when i try to grasp for that air, it just doesn’t come to me and it drives me crazy. I try to think of other things to get my mind off this whole frustrating situation, but the only other thing i can think about is death. I always feel great and happy before i want to rest, but as soon i as lay in my bed the thought drench me and especially the thought of waking up in the morning without my mother, father, sister and even my dog, for they are the only people who i truly love and cant live without. I am clinged to them. I cant rest unless i know they are save, and at night even when they are right in the room beside me, i feel like they are gone and i am all alone. I think to myself, what if something happens tonight and tomorrow when i go to ask my mom a question she wont be there to answer, what if my sister wont be there to give me advice, my dad there to tell me everything is going to be okay and my dog to wage his tale as soon as i see him. These are only the smallest of things that concerns me at night. But most of all, the scariest thing for me to think about, is my future. I am only 13 and i am depressed, frustrated, have constant anxiety and cry myself to sleep every night. what will future me be like, what pain do i have to go through then?