I’m so f****** sick and tired of life and living in my f****** skull. F*** everything I want so bad to just bomb the s*** out of something and make a name for myself instead of wasting my f****** youth and life away to just work meaningless jobs to earn money that I don’t f****** care about.

Why do we all avoid the truth like it’s the g******* plague? Why do we all avoid the pain and suffering that is needed in order to achieve our goals and dreams? Why do we choose a pleasant death over a hard life? I’m so sick of my f****** head making things infinitely harder than they should f****** be just because people don’t know how to help me and I don’t know how to help myself. How much greater could the world f****** be if we could all be f****** honest with each other instead of creating a false reality and unanimously agreeing that things should be this way.

The world isn’t safe, it isn’t fun, it’s not fair, and it’s not great. Some parts are, and others aren’t. Everybody’s f****** yelling over each other in a giant d*** rating competition to be the f****** best and meanwhile we are completely f****** falling apart.

Suicide is on mass rise and mental illness is the norm. We are all becoming psychotic because we are all living a f****** lie and would rather die than tell the f****** truth about what we are. Because we were all raised to not hurt others and guess what? The truth f****** hurts.

The truth would cause us to lose everything we’ve built and everything we have, can’t manage that can we? Nope. Would rather live in this delusional world of lies that we have all built. I’m f****** sick of it. No f****** more. I don’t want this any f****** more. F*** everything. F*** everyone. I don’t care. I want you all to know how badly I want to f****** end it all.

Just wish things were different. Just wish I was different. I’m just so tired.