Listening to Ronnie Dunn the cost of living. Very disappointed about a job I thought I would get that would be much better than this one in a better location, with more opportunities and of course pay. I got fingerprinted, picture taken, the whole works to know they were going by order of applications and I guess mine wasn’t turned in fast enough. I had to drive 2 hours there and back out of my town to get the picture,id, and fingerprints done. It was all for nothing.

Actually got a call for another job, but it doesn’t pay squat. I wouldn’t be able to make it to support myself and other. 1,675 a month and that’s before taxes. It would have been something I loved but for now I have to settle because I get paid more where I’m at now.

For the past few weeks I have had chest pains. It comes and goes unfortunately on the left side. Sometimes it feels like it’s more heart, other times it feels like it’s my breast. I want to go to the hospital or clinic, but I still don’t have medical insurance. My job doesn’t offer it and even with Obama care I still can’t afford it. I’m scared it’s going to cost me an arm and a leg with various tests such as ekg or a mammogram and God knows what else. Last time I tried contacting my local hospital just to get an estimate on a medical procedure the lady told me ‘it depends’ and that I would have to make an apt aka spend at least $100, speak with the doctor and then she’d be able to tell me. I would be really upset to spend all that money for nothing though at this point I think it is something…….I’m hoping it will go away soon.

It’s been incredibly difficult these last few years to say the least. To think I may be dying from a broken heart.