i have a wild fetish for shotacon.. which is pretty much animated p*** of little boys getting fucked by other little boys, or sometimes by an adult man about the age of 17 to 20..
i’m a 17 years old female and i am in no way attracted to real life children. but when they are animated in the Japanese style and exposed i just can’t help myself.. its like i can put myself into there situation and it’s a big turn on..
i feel really ashamed and grossed out that i like this, and i don’t want to believe i’m into pedophilia because i know it’s wrong.. but i always find myself googling “shotacon” or “s****”

i sometimes even like to pretend and act out (when i’m alone, of course) that i’m a young male teenager in a gay relationship and it ends up in me m*********** and pretending i’m having g******..

i don’t think this is normal and its far beyond okay for me to talk about it to my therapist because she might send me to a hospital..