I don’t know what kind of feeling, I’m feeling right now. So, I just labelled it as “other” because I don’t have an idea what’s this. But one thing I’m sure is that, I’m not sad but I’m not happy either. The past few weeks, I just found myself crying. I don’t know why. But right now, I don’t feel anything. I can’t focus, I just wanna lay in my bed. I’m ignoring everyone, I’m isolating myself from people who’s close to me. The person I wanna talk about this is ignoring me. But I don’t feel hurt, I guess I’m already used to it. Cause she’s always been like that. I need her but I can’t do anything about it. I wanna go to a place that can make me feel like myself and do things that can remind me that I’m in control. I’m so fucked up right now. How do I pick myself up?