sometimes I can’t f****** take it my so called best friends I swear they truly don’t get me EVERY single word that comes out of her mouth is all abt her I don’t have the heart to tell her but sometimes I don’t give A F*** that she is having s** at 15 and might be pregnant because her condom broke or I don’t care that her brother is in a toxic relationship with some girl or that her other brothers girlfriend might be pregnant with someone else’s kid I know that makes me sound bad ik but I truly do feel for her but it’s every other word she never asks abt me or how im doing or my other friend she’s a relatively new friend but we are close ig but she is the same she only talks abt her and ONLY herself or abt her family issues and I LISTEN TO EVERY SINGLE ONE FROM BOTH but this whole month they yet to ask how I’m doing and personally I feel I like sometimes I want to block them and cut them out but when I say there my only friends I mean it currently they are hanging out without me and a rubbing it in in the group chat abt how they are having so much fun and a part of me is happy for them but the other part wants to just block them the fact that my whole life is NOTICEABLY bursting at the seems and they have not said abosutly nothing today I was gone for a solid 20 mins at lunch and they were talking and ignoring me like always so when I left they didn’t notice or say anything and when I get back it’s like I’m not even there NOTHING ABOSUTLY NOTHING and I truly feel like they are cutting me out when I need them the most and they don’t even care when they do talk to me I pretend to be interested and happy but on the inside I really just want to tell the both of them to shut the f*** up and walk away this has been going on for awhile and idk what to do anymore everyday when I get home I just cry and when I’m noticeably upset my family gets angry Bc when I see them I’m not in a good mood I have literally no one to tell or hang out with I really just want a shoulder to cry on but there is no one at all I’m hanging on by a thread and idk what im going to do
