Well, evrythiNg seems to be fine.. Seems. But smthing is wrong, what is wrong? Its really not the time for me to give up or to depress or to feel dispirited , dejected.
But wht if i give up then what will happen next?
What if i decide to stop lying to the people around me, to the people i love.. What if i realise that what i feel is not love.. What if.
What if i decide to follow my own path, to stop listening, to do what i want, to change my major, to go, not to be,to forget people’s thoughts,forget what people say, stop acting as if i dnt care nd faking a smile when something go wrong or when someone hurt me (maybe not on purpose), stop hiding behind a smile
Stop trying to please you, nt care about what u might think, not believe every word you say, stop feeling bad when you, all of you, re not happy,
stop stressing,stop missing someone when the other just dont care..
But wht if i jump, what if i leave, what if i change, i know i cant do it , i dnt have enough energy, enough strength
I will not show how weak i am, i will not admit it
Tomorrow is a new day, tomorrow i will forget abt all this