I feel bad because I have to miss my friend’s bachelorette party to go to a funeral now. I feel bad because I want to be at the funeral, it’s a distant family member… you know, one of those ones you only see on holidays… this is just a long line of awful things that keep happening… depression, can’t find a job, my body is failing me,… I just want to enjoy myself for once, but there is death and failure and darkness all around me. All life is… is just tragedies. This is an ugly world we live in. Why do I have to go through the motions? And why in the hell do I have to suffer through this when all the other “confessions” I see on this site are perverted f****** middle aged men jacking off to sick stuff… people like that make this world scummy as well. When will it stop?