Meh. I decided I have the tendency to love the things that are bad for me. I spent over 150 dollars on drugs in the last week. I’ve randomly been throwing up the last few months but haven’t gone to the doctor because, hey, less food in my stomach to make me fat. I have completely and utterly fallen for him although he has been with her over a year and only wants s** from me. I kind of like knowing I’m in pain. I’ve been in pain so long it’s become normal for me. I’m totally self destructive. The funny thing is, no one seems to notice, let alone care.