I had s** with someone who is roughly 25 years older than me.

He was like 40? 41? And I was e_e 18? or 17?

He was my boss…. BUT NOT ORIGINALLY. Well I guess it doesn’t matter. He was a coworker, the sushi guy (the one who rolls the sushi), and I was the hostess. Being hostess, I am not aloud to leave my stand at that front of the restaurant all day, so co-workers would come up and talk to me throughout the day. Including the sushi guys. Well he was a co-worker, whom I really liked because he took such good care of me. He’d show me what to do and how to do it, even though he wasn’t really my boss. He had just been there a long time and knew how to help me. So I was very grateful! and followed him like a puppy dog.

He was treating me so well, and I was starting to get curious about his age. I asked ANOTHER co-worker how old he was shyly and she instantly knew why I was asking his age. I was so embaressed! and she asked me ‘How old do you think he is?’ And I guessed somewhere in the 20’s.. She made this very shocked face and just told me nooo no no. She basically told me to not go after it because he was much older than me. Poop.. I thought to myself. But that doesn’t mean I can’t still be his friend! So I stayed the way I was but I didn’t drop any hints in fear that i’d scare him away from being my friend.

One day, I don’t remember HOW this happened or how I even got into his car behind the theater but.. I think I parked my car back there? and he offered me a ride to my car because there were people running around and it was late? I can’t remember, but I do remember when he was mumbling something under his breath in the drivers seat. He started talking about something but then drifted off into another topic of, ‘I don’t want to sound weird, but I’ve been thinking’ And my heart started racing because I KNEW where he was going with it. ‘No it’s nothing..’ He said. And my eyes got all big like ‘No! What did you want to tell me! PLEASE!!’ And finally I got him to say it, “Would it be alright if I kissed you?” I can still remember his sheepish smile and blushing cheeks. GOSH. He was so cute. I don’t remember what I exactly said, but I remember telling him, I had been thinking about us too, and the things we could do.

Hahaha, we ended up having s**.. at ANOTHER co-workers HOUSE. AH! Ahhh, that was scary. We were on the sofa right infront of the FRONT DOOR. I can’t believe I did this i’m so giggly. Heehehe~ I’m not sure why, I just felt so accomplished that I got a MAN in bed. … He was tinier than I expected. BUT IT WAS STILL FUN. But… tinier than I expected.. So we did it there and then x___x” Omg, we did it next to his girlfriends bed on the floor. x_x That’s when I had to leave. I was just.. I was seeing the area, and what positing I was in and how unfair it was to the other lady. So I left.

Now when I say I left.. I was living with that other co-worker(the place we had s** in first) at first because they were nice enough to let me crash at their place and then when I left that place, Kyochin(the older s*** boss guy) offered me HIS place. Like I said I left not too long after but the damage was already done. We has s** twice there. He would sneak under my sheets some mornings and start kissing me and then so on and so fourth. I stayed with him for maybe a week or even less, and then I left. I knew I was putting pressure on the girlfriend who was pregnant with his baby…

I was trying to leave the apartment one night when he started calling me, begging me to not leave. He said the roads were too dangerous and he started speeding home to catch me. He said he didn’t want it to be his fault if I was driving around out there and something bad had happened. He made me feel that my life was in danger if I left that night. I lingered around on the phone call not realizing how close he was until he was already hanging up BOTH of our phones, taking me by the arm and walking me inside his apt. Trickster.. I remember I felt like crying because I felt like I was making his life a mess. Eventually, I think I snuck out in the night or morning or something. I can’t remember exactly how I got out of there I just remember I didn’t turn back.

I haven’t talked to him sense I left and his kid has been born, because it’s really not my place anymore. But I really did like that man. I’m sad things turned out the way they did, but I truly just hope that he is happy. He kinda seemed dragged into it with her because of the baby. I’m not sure though, and again. It’s not my place. I wish I could pop in, secretly just to observe, and then disappear once I know he’s doing well. He was a kind friend, regardless of the stupid things we did. I feel like I know i’ll never see him again.. Oh Kyochin. You goof. Be happy, healthy, loving and truthful. I hope you and yours are well.