I know it’s not the smartest idea to see him, let alone talk to him. He’s still with her. But I miss him. The connection we had from the moment we locked eyes.. It was never just s*****. Hell, we only made love once. We talked, about everything. He filled the hole inside me that I never thought would be filled. The anxious feeling I get whenever I talk to him; it’s absolutely addicting. I’m torn because I know if I see him everything will fall right back into what is was before and that will wreck everything I’ve worked so hard to become these last 6 months.. but my heart, mind, body, and soul all ache for him.. This love is so toxic.