I always had a communication problem as a little girl, unable to speaking up well, or babbling… to be honest as a little child being s******* abused and s******* stimulated by pedos and people who abused me caused me a brain disfunction. often my mouth felt big or like the words in my head raced ahead of my ability to get them out in the open. I didn’t know how to break it to anyone that I was being molested and I thought they might know or guess it by my behavior… bed wetting, clingy to my mother, absenteeism, sickness, headaches and feeling disjointed from my ability to get the words out about what he and they were doing to me. that is what trauma and s***** trauma does. it was the same when ken date raped me. he seemed to think he knew what I wanted and he had it wrong. a million men would have been better for me then him. he was the wrong guy for the job. it took ages for me to try to communicate what he and they did to me at the rsl/navy … the gang up set up was not a very nice thing to do to a virgin when he was a married old fat skinhead thug with nothing to offer me at all … he had nothing I needed.
it was the same with katy bashing me it took me ages to get out what she was doing to me, cuz I was so traumatized and was blocking the reality of it.