So when heather said to me, “can you now see how a man would choose an older woman?” she did not explain in what context…

if she ment my 70 year old great uncle who was molesting me from the age of 5 … I never asked him to molest me, who would? if I was going to be molested I think I wrote in my diary I wanted this cute young guy as I recall.

if she ment teenage guys or young men when I was a teen or a young 21 or 25 year old I think that her statement does not fit right, she should try putting that to teen girls and see what she gets, cuz a lot would smack her face in. people told me I had every right to believe a young teen or young man when I was young would want me.

if she was referring to ken r***** me …I never wanted to have s** with him at all.
I had every right to believe that rick wanted me when he was the one flirting with me….even michelle rang me and told me she said to me “I seen him looking at you the whole night, and I can’t even see what she sees in katy” while I don’t even care about rick now, the point is that heather was implying that I had no right to believe or expect a young man to want me.

she did not communicate properly with me. nothing she said made sense. she was just abusing me setting me back chastising me and playing guilt trips on me to make me feel inadequate and submissive and to feel simple minded when she was the simple minded fool bullying me. she was completely out of order and mentally abusive. I just can never forgive her for that. you have given me worse migraines as the years go on trying to work out what you were on about. you were just deliberately confusing me and tricking me, belittling me… giving me migraines, torturing me … torturing me with your ugliness and presence.