RIGHT NOW I AM SO ILL I HAVE BEEN TOLD WHILE WE ARE ILL WE SHOULD NOT BE LOOKING FOR RELATIONSHIPS OR STARTING RELATIONSHIPS…
I AM SO ILL AT THE MOMENT I AM NOT AS INTERESTED IN RELATIONSHIPS AS I WAS YEARS AGO WHEN I WAS YOUNG AND HEALTHY.
I AM OLD NOW. I AM 43 AND STILL DON’T EVEN KNOW HOW TO USE A CONDOM.
YOU SHOULD HAVE THOUGHT ABOUT MY NEEDS MORE WHEN I WAS YOUNG AND HEALTHY
YOU LET ME DOWN.
YOUR TO BLAME.
YOU CAN’T FIX THE PROBLEMS NOW THAT YOU CREATED FOR ME.
YOU SHOULD HAVE CONSIDERED MY NEEDS WHEN I NEEDED HELP THE MOST WHEN I WAS A TEENAGER AFTER BEING BASHED AND S******* ASSAULTED IN 1986…
YOU WRONGED ME.
YOU LET ME DOWN.
YOU WERE SELFISH.
YOU GOT IT WRONG.
YOU JUDGED MEWRONGLY
YOU LABELLED ME AND TALKED ABOUT ME POORLY TO PEOPLE
YOUR TO BLAME…
NOW LIVE WITH IT.
YOU SHOULD HAVE GOT IT RIGHT THE FIRST TIME AROUND WITH ME. YOU SHOULD KNOW WHAT I NEEDED AND PROVIDED IT.
YOU SHOULD KNOW THE RIGHT THING TO DO.
I SHOULD NOT HAVE TO JUSTIFY MYSELF HERE OR TO ANYONE
YOU SHOULD KNOW THE APPROPRIATE ACTION AND CONDUCT THAT WAS EXPECTED OF YOU.
YOU SHOULD GET IT RIGHT AND YOU DIDN’T … YOU WRONGED ME. SO LIVE WITH IT AND S*** IT UP AND I HOPE IT RIDDLES YOU WITH GUILT TIL THE DAY YOU DIE AND BEYOND THE GRAVE. I REALLY DO!!! SO SELFISH.
