why do I feel like my life means nothing? most of my life I feel so helpless and as if no has ever cared when I am in pain. I cry out but who is listening and caring? I choke on the feeling of quietly dying in this life and people watching and no one caring for my hurt, loss and pain. r*** and stroke is the most isolating thing worse then being molested as a child and that was isolating and terrifying enough.

someone said to me “s** should not be painful first time for a girl” … well it is ! I was torn and it keep being torn! but no one will ever care cuz I am s***. I always was s***.