I behave a certain way based on deeper issues that I already have thought through with myself. My current lifestyle is a function of that coupled with habits and routines that have been built over time. I want to commit myself to work on myself and my life. No more philosophizing. I need to stop trying to figure out life and just live it. I will figure out things as I go. I am not wrong just because I am me. Live my live to maximize happiness and health on a day to day as well as long term basis. No more noob mindset. Time to change and grow.