I’m damn good at my job, but no one likes to involve me in a problem case until the end. It’s because they know I’ll figure it out in a few minutes, making the hours or more they spent on it look like wasted effort. I’m sorry, I just know my job really well. I try to leave hints, or guide people to the answers sometimes. Sometimes I just tell them what to do, other times I don’t feel like helping at all, they should be able to figure this out. I feel guilty and angry at them and at me. I wrote you a manual why can’t you follow it. We are here to help people, I know your frustrated dealing with people. But I get more frustrated dealing with you, I expect people not to know what to do. I came into this with nothing, kicked out of schools with nothing to show for anything. You all have diploma, degrees and certifications and training from nice places. I didn’t, I’m sorry.
I’m frustrated and angry at work, then I go home I haven’t been intimate with my spouse in over half a year, and before that barely any at all in a few years. but even then our marriage didn’t have intimacy the first night, so why am I thinking it would change. The few times anything happens, I give it all, your happy and I’m not done. It always is one sided. You have never ran your hands across my body to feel me, ever. I’m sorry. I haven’t had a kiss in months, last time I tried you turned away, my heart fell through the floor, I haven’t recovered. I’m sorry.