My last boyfriend and I didn’t have a thing going on for too long. What we had, however, was intense. But I never thought I’d grow this close to him. I always thought what we had was platonic. I always thought he mattered little to me. For as long as I was with him, I was commitment phobic. But as it turns out, I was wrong. What we had wasn’t a fling, it wasn’t platonic, he mattered to me a lot more than I realized at the time. I dumped him without reason and it took me a long time to realize what an amazing guy he is.

I feel terrible about whatever has happened between us. I want him back. Damn it, I just wish I could reverse time. I just wish I could have him back,