okay i usualy come on this site and read, but never felt the need to write anything..
but today i really felt that i had to let it out..
one of my close friends,that i havent spoken to for while because she was impossible to reach, told me that couple of days ago, she started using drugs again..she did it twice.
she was clean for a year and a half now, i think, and it killed me to know that she couldnt resist to take it.
she didnt wanna tell me at the beginning cause she was too afraid of my reaction i guess.. and when she did, i think she regret it.. i cursed at her, she tried to explain it but i think i was too harsh..
i really was in shock and didnt know what to do, instead of listening to her i yelled..
she promised that it was the last time she would do it.. but now im afraid i lost her for good.. cuz i really wasnt that understanding and its defenetly not the reaction i would want my friend to have if it happened to me..
i really wanna tell her that im sorry for everything and that i love her so much, but i cant.. its just too hard.
all i want her to know is that im here for her no matter what, and that i love her and that she’s veryy important to me.. i love you R <3
C.