This confession is so I can try to get everything off of my chest, no need to bother with this.
I am terrified of disappointing others. I want to do all I can to be good, but when I start to do well on anything My mind just melts and I start to feel like I shouldn’t showoff or be noticed because I would become a burden to others. I have had thought of taking my life in the past, but I think the only thought that stopped me is that I would inconvenience my family. I mentally know that my family loves me, But when some one mentions it I feel like they are lying. I feel like my friends are just to polite to tell me to leave them alone, I have turned down Invitations to hang out because of this feeling. I am Bisexual and I am afraid of relationships partly because my mother is very religious, and has made it clear about her feelings on the LGBT community, but I also feel like I am just a waste and anyone I feel attracted to shouldn’t even have to see me because I am that useless. I prefer computer and books to anything remotely to do with people. I use to play online with people at least but now the feeling of being a burden is there as well. To top all of the previous things I am a Furry, and that in itself causes problems, in my fursona I just want to feel loved like you love your dog, not any thing perverted.
I am sorry if you read this for taking up your time