He told me that he has to keep checking that I’m real, that I’m not just being like.. paid to keep an eye on him. Like I won’t just peace on him after he gets therapy and stuff. I reminded him that I can see myself with him for the rest of my life and I want him to be the happiest, most at peace he can be. That will only benefit us, just like becoming sober from alcohol made us stronger.
His thoughts hit close to home though. I’ve wondered if I came into his life to give love and support he’s never had so that he can overcome some big hurdles. I’ve wondered if I’ll serve my purpose one day and be discarded or maybe I’ll die and leave him with what he needs to live on. We all have crazy thoughts whether we admit it or not.
