today, the new year morning i woke up with the realisation that the rest of my year or even probably rest of my life i’d have to handle the same s***.

i woke up disturbed by the shoutings and screamings. heard all the offensive swearings being shouted by my bro at my dad on top of his lungs. i just took a deep breath. plugged in the earphones. kept the volume to maximum and started crying badly. ended up with big red puffy eyes and blocked nose. and when i went down to have food, saw my dad with the same puffy eyes as mine. he just left the room humiliated, powerless, helpless and depressed. now 71, handled this for 15 long years and still got the best patience and love for us.

this was a daily routine. but what’s the worst part for today’s? it was 1st day of new year. got the best start.

thank you God for the ignorace that you have been showing me since 10 long years. think you wont have a tough time maintaining it. i also appreciate your kindess for keeping my heart beating even if i beg before you everyday asking to freeze it forever. i’m thankful for the blessings being showered upon my family on a daily basis.
but one thing i must say, after all of these beautiful things you’ve done for me, i still have a small ray of hope. the day it goes off, i may not require your help to come to you.

i think soon i’ll plan on having a forever nice time with God.