I can’t believe it. I’m probably going to spend new years alone again. I’ve just moved to Sydney and my house mate who I first had on a crush on just used me for s** basically after he knew I was moving in. just made my time in the house so f****** awkward for the first week.. I had no-where to stay and BOOM straight took advantage. Now this second guy I kind of like alot. I found him on a dating website. When I met him he was nice caring, but very poor. I now find myself paying for “our food” as he claims to never have money. Also he has bailed on me a couple times to hang out when he said he was coming. Seriously 2 guys in the space of 4 months and it has just gotten worse from last 3 year relationship. I cry thinking about my ex and if it could ever work. I lone for the times of when we first met and how in love I was. Even when I say I dont want a boyfriend. Secretly deep down I do. I want one who truly cares and wants to be with me, not one who pretend s they want to be with you and then once they have you they don’t try anymore. *sigh I just want the pain to go away. It’s nearly new years and its been an awful depressing year, not as bad as some years but still pretty horrific. Please if there is a god bless me to meet new people and find genuine friends. not just the ones that want s**.