Hi everyone
So let me get to the point I have come to finally believe that my off/on again boyfriend of +5 years might be gay. Every time we broke up I felt like I needed clarity and I needed to understand him. I blamed myself and he always made me feel bad. I lost so many friends, even starting smoking weed and drinking because its become stressful. These last few years have been crazy ups and downs. I kinda called him gay first time he got really upset and starting pounding his fist against the wall. The most recent time I brought it up again I asked him and he simply responded back on a text that “I love you more” there’s so much that has happened and almost every time we got in a argument it was over petty things which he would stop talking to me for like weeks. I even thought he was bipolar with his crazy mood swings but I think I finally realized that he’s gay and is battling himself on it. I truly believes that he was the one:( which it breaks my heart to think I fell for all his lies.