Phone off is an option. But there isn’t the Brain off option. So I sleep. I can’t take everything anymore. Never been this stressed, disappointed, let down or hurt. There’s a lot I can’t take anymore. And the fact that I’m not that strong person anymore is the most demotivating factor there is. I’m still here for one thing, one thing is saving me. My little girl. I wanna see what she’s gonna look like. What she’ll pick as an activity, dance or martial arts. Music or books.
I wanna see if she’s gonna be this small version of me, or a stronger more amazing girl.
I need this brain off option. But it doesn’t last. Time is not manageable. Or else, I would’ve skipped a couple of years…