I’ve been helping my boyfriend care for his weed plants again this year. He said we could cut them and trim them together like we did last year. But he just went and cut my favorite plant and now plans to trim it by himself. I just wanted to do something fun together, it’s not like we go anywhere or do anything. His anxiety runs the f****** show and we can’t even go into Dollarama without him getting irritable and making me feel like it was a mistake to even bother. When I want him to go for a walk it’s, “I don’t want to go far.” so anything over 30 mins will make him whine. When I pick him up from work it’s often just hours upon hours of “I should have done this, shouldn’t have done that, could have done this, everybody hates me, etc.” I haven’t been the same since his last episode on Tuesday. I’m entirely drained and depressed. I’ve been crying and I’m short tempered. He hates his job 50% of the time and I love mine but I actually thought, “I want to f****** quit.” when something pissed me off and I’ve never had that thought at my current job before. I came home angry every day this week. If he doesn’t get into therapy and stick with it, I think I’m going to break.
