I am depressed and I drink every morning and night. I don’t know what to do with my life and everything seems meaningless. I feel like I am going nowhere fast. I pray to god and nothing changes so I’m not even sure what to believe in anymore. People keep saying stuff like “do whatever you want” and “follow your dreams” but the problem is that I don’t have a dream. I don’t want anything. No one understands so I just pretend everything is fine and I’m alright but really I’m slowly destroying myself.