I am not an emotional person. I am not quick to anger, I am a patient. Events in my life have taken away everything that I care about. My lady relationship ended three weeks ago. I have not mourned, or shed a single tear, even though I loved her very much and was my best friend up until the end. I am a man and was raised by men don’t cry.

I feel alone, I feel I have to let myself feel anger, feel sadness, but I just swallow it. I avoid listening to any heart felt moving songs, because it will make me cry. Real men don’t cry. I have no guilt, just a deep seated sense of loss. I am alone with no one. I feel despair, anguish and deep seated pain.

This post has helped me. I have to work out, jog and channel my negative emotions into something positive. I have to continue to strive to be a better man in all aspects of my life. I still have cried in over 2 years, because real men don’t cry. Real men do not feel sorry for themselves. Real men take responce abilty for their own actions and do not blame others. Real men do not internalize others actions. Real men take steps to make themselves better. I still have not cried…