i rarely hear her ask about me. not about what i think, not about what i look forward to, not about how i am doing. i feel like i would give her this kind of attention, but deep inside i expected it to be reciprocated. and at this point since it’s not, it hurts. i feel lonely and isolated. when i try to prompt discussion about myself it is left in the back burner. for example she will for the whole car ride and by the time we arrive and i have a chance to speak, we are already out of the car and at the activity we were attending. i don’t really get to speak by default. i want to be listened to, validated and understood. i feel like that’s all i need to stay sane, yet i can’t get it from the very person i spend my time with the most. i don’t even have additional friends or family members whom i can have this kind of contact with. it is deeply frustrating and i don’t exactly know what i should do about it. there are different avenues i could approach this problem, and right now i am trying to improve my own communication instead of defer to other people.. but every time she says “what i cant hear you” and gets pissy at me for it, i can help but want to just leave and talk to someone else. something so simple yet so frustrating, because i’ve talked to other people that make the effort to understand. i think this can be solved but i just grow tired at times at trying to work at it.