I have major depression and mild bipolar disorder, and suicide is something I’ve thought of every day, but I doubt I’ll act on it… I don’t feel good enough for him, I feel like I should force myself to be perfect, that my only reason for being on this earth is for men to use me in any way they please. I’ve also started eating less. I’m 105.4 lbs right now, but I want to be skinnier, curvier, more attractive. I only ate dinner yesterday and I refuse to eat today… Are these the early stages of anorexia?