mother,father,sister hates me so i have no family my friends are into drugs and i cant be round that i’m 19 don’t have a job cant afford to achieve my goals i’m sober thank goodness but am totally by myself no real strong relationships and no one to love or be loved i want to go on but i question if it would be any good my family doesn’t like me and the pain of losing the ones that used to love you is so painful i feel so numb like i could go and hang myself no problem but at the same time i don’t know what i could be missing out so stressed i want to die and have a different life with full loving parents for 100 percent sure and not raised and taught by abuse and love through money and toys i wish i was never born i wish so my parents could be happier because i am the one to blame its always my fault even if im right i hurt everyone and so i want to just cry but for some reason i can’t i feel so empty dead a nobody