I’m tired of everything
Even though I’m young and shouldn’t be.
I’m tired of life
Of people
Of me.
My anxiety just keeps getting worse aswell as my depression.
I’m having a hard time to open up to people bc I worry to much.
I always do.
I’m about to have the worst years of my life yet: possibly getting humiliated, going nonverbal and random mental blackouts.
Life is just a mental drain to me.
School especially, everytime I step into it : I want to throw up: hyperventilate and cry.
I’ve thought about leaving so much but I’m tied to ppl I love even though I hate the phrase ‘it doesn’t get rid of the pain it just gives it to someone else’ it still stops me, I still think of the people who I might pain. But I don’t want to hold onto this pain bc I don’t want to pain others,
I’m rambling on now: I just want to disappear slowly listening to music maybe outside, away from everyone and everything.
I might do that soon, I just might