I love her. Only problem is, I’m also a she ^^. I like boys, mind. I just… love her, everything about her, the way she smiles and the way she knows exactly what to say to make everything so much better and how beautiful and smart she is. She’s perfect. You can’t comprehend how amazing she is, because I can’t put it into words. Or maybe because there aren’t enough words in the English language which can really capture her.
And she loves me back, I know she does… as her sister (no, we’re not related). But the way she acts around me, how she always constantly holds my hand, hugs me, puts her head on my shoulder, we cross our legs beneath tables, we go out together, just the two of us even though our mutual best friends would be really hurt if they found out we were excluding them. [Actually, both of them ship us, but she doesn’t know that. One of them found out about my feelings. She’s very supportive. Thank you babe, if you’re reading this!] We have our songs. She says she’d cross worlds for me. That I mean everything to her, that I’m adorable, that I’m perfect, that she needs me.
Then she tells me about the guy she likes, and I tell her how confused I am about the guy who likes me. But all I want, in the end, is a chance at forever with her. I love her, and I’m not ashamed of it (how can something that feels so good be wrong?) but she doesn’t love me in the same way, and that hurts.
I just had to get it out, I guess. It just hurt too much today. I’m sorry for taking up your time ^^ But I had to talk to someone, and the one person I tell everything to just can’t find out about this. Thank you for listening, I hope you have a nice day and a good life.