I told him that I was pregnant last night. I hoped he would understand that this is scary for me or something. Comfort me maybe? It took two people to make this happen and I’m the one who has to deal with it. I don’t feel good and I’m scared. He put me on the backburner all day instead. He spent 5 hours losing his mind over the same thing, which didn’t need to happen if he had just called tech support sooner. I even completed the other task he was stressed about to hurry things along. I was quiet, I tried to reassure him, I tried to help. He knew how badly I wanted some quality time with him but he couldn’t stop.. From 9AM to 6:30PM I only got about 45 minutes of his time.

I’m trying not to be so hurt but my heart broke a little bit today. I needed my partner. I go to the doctor alone tomorrow. I feel like I need to protect myself against him now because I can’t trust that he’ll be there for me. That hurts so f****** much…