I feel like I may have been molested as a young girl. I was always h**** even before I knew what that meant. I would find ways to get release. I lost my virginity and about 14 or 15. I pretended my Barbies were having s**. I couldn’t stand my father touching me but later in life sought out older men for s** and attention. At 13 I became very depressed and thought about suicide. At 16 I started cutting myself. The reason I don’t know for sure is my childhood from age 5 until age 13 is mainly a blank, with only a few momentary “snapshots” in between. I know from my sibling that I was physically abused from age 5 until age 12 by our ex stepmom. But that doesn’t explain everything. I know I developed early. By 13 I was a C cup and had a womanly figure. By 16 I was between a D and a DD. My siblings have had problems too so I don’t really know what happened to us. All I know is being around kids makes me feel very uncomfortable and awkward and I am glad I never had any, (I’m 36)