I’m an adult man who wants to have s** with underage girls. I know that it would never be a moral thing, and I never intend to do it, but I can’t stop myself from fantasizing about it. I know that I can’t control these feelings – it’s just something I have to live with – and I try not to beat myself up about them, but I’m terrified that some day, someone will find out, and then I’ll be processed out of society and sent to jail or killed. This fear infiltrates my life and keeps me from getting close to people, because I’m always afraid that something, somehow, will slip, and then the game will be up. I’m even so afraid that I have some poison in my bed-side table, in case they ever find out.