Kabhi kabhi dil karta hai…tumhari har baat pe…tumhare kahe hue har lafz pe yaqeen hi kyu na kar loon main?
I mean – agar wo sach hota – to zindagi perfect thi na?
Akhir tum hi kehte they na – ke hum dono ek doosre ke “dotes-aur –antidotes” hain.
Tum ye maante ho ya nai maantey – main nai jaanti
Magar maine to jaise is pe imaan hi le aaya tha
Jig saw puzzle ke jaise fit hotey they hum ek doosre ke saath
Magar ye sab mera nazariya tha…meri apni nazar ka dhokha shayad
main to wohi dekh rahi thi – jo main dekhna chahti thi
Tumhare liyen…to ye sab ek game tha
Tum khel rahe they – jeetne ke liyen…aur main – main sirf pyaar kar rahi thi…
Agar tum ek rang they – to khudh ko tum main ghol rahi thi main
Kuch is tarrah – ke is poore process main – khudh hi ko kho diya maine
Sahi kya ha…ghalat kya ha – dikh hi nahi paaya
Hansi aati khudh pe – ke jis rishte ki buniyaad sirf jhoot pe hi bani ho – wo rishta kis tarah wafa kar sakta hai kisi se?
Tumne to pehle din se sirf jhoot hi boley…aur main har baar yaqeen hi karti chali gayi tum pe…to ghalat to main hi zyaada hui na Usman?
Tumne jo aakhiri jhooth boley mujhe se – us ki to wajah bhi tum ne khudh mujh hi ko bana diya…is baat ne behad gehra zakham diya tumne mujhe
Jaate jaate to itna zulm nai karte log – un logon pe – jinhone unhe belos muhabbat ke siwa kuch na diya ho?
Maine to apna raasta bhi tumhari hi ijaazat leke chuna.
Kabhi tum kehte ho ke tum mere saath move-in kar jaati 2008 main– to shaayad mera faasla badal jaata
Kabhi tum kehte ho ke tum shaadi ke liyen kisi aur ko na dekhti – to shaayad mera faisla kuch aur hota.
Kabhi tum kehte ho ke tum intezaar karti to mera faisla kuch aur hota.
Main kehti hoon – ke tumhara faisla hamesha yehi hota Usman…jo aaj hai
Tum pehle bhi mere saath nahi chal sakte they…aaj bhi nahi chal sakte
Jo log pukhta iraade rakhte hain – wo yun bahaane nahi banaate…
Tum kehte ho – main conformist hoon – magar dekho jo tumne apni professional life ke saath kiya hai – kya wo conformist karte hain?
Sach ye hai ke tum conformist bhi nahi ho…
Tum kehte ho – ke tum Sadiq ke saath nahi soti – to mera yaqeen tum pe bana rehta…
19 october ko break up kiya tha tumne mujhse – mujhe is qadr zaleel karke – ke khudh se bhi nazar milaane laayak nahi rahi thi main….15 February ki chat tumne mujhe dikha ke bola tha – ke ye kiya maine tumhare saath?
Aur tum kehte ho ke maine iddat poori nai ki tumhari?
Maine to iddat poori ki thi…magar tumne to insaaniyat tak nai dikhai mujhe.
Kisi pe investigation karte hain jab – jab aap uske saath hon.
Usko kha ke thook dene ke baad – kaisi investigation?
Jab tumne mujhe zaleel karke apni zindagi se alag kar hi diya tha – to kaisi loyalty expect kar rahe they tum? Aur kyu? Aur khudh kya kar rahe they tum – ye socha kabhi?
Aur agar itne hi na-khush they tum us investigation se – to kyu ek saal ke baad waapas aaye tum??? Kyuuu??? Meri bachchi kuchi zindagi barbaad karne ke liyen hi na????
Yehi objective than a tumhara????
Mubaarkho – tum jeet gaye! Main sab kuch haar gayi!
Magar jaate jaate aaina dekh lena tum zarur….
Tum jhootey ho….jhooth bolna – aadat ban gayi hai tumhari.
Tum kaayar ho…buzdil ho…
Aur apne in saare jhooton ke peeche chipna chahte ho tum.
Kaash ke main tum se kabhi nahi mili hoti….kaash ke 2007 ke wo July – kabhi na aaya hota
Mujhe andar se maar daala hai tumhare is mirage jaise pyaar ne – jo dikhta hai – lekin nahi hai.
Sab kuch hai…magar kitni akeli hoon main?
Kis modh pe…aur kahan hoon main…ye main bhi nai jaanti.
Har waqt dua karti hoon khuda se – ke ye dard kam kar dein wo mera…ek baar…sirf ek baar
