i can’t get over the fact of how much i want to be her. if i could have surgery to look like her, i would do it in a heart beat. she is so beautiful. no wonder why he wanted to be with her. i love everything about her. her personality, the way she dresses, the way she carries her self. she is so lucky! i want everything she has (material wise) her car, clothes, job. she has the perfect life. if only he knew how much i was trying to be like her, i don’t know what he would do. he says he doesn’t like her, but everything he expects/wants out of me is who she is: smart, independent, beautiful, confident, out-going, fit, has a job, has a car, doing good in school, and she’s a happy person. . . unlike me. i want to be her so bad….or at least be a part of her life. i’m pathetic
