Also though, I said “we were” not we are. Past tense, but I know. I sometimes wonder if that whole thing was a dare brought on by others from my past who I was not in touch with and not even considering getting into touch with, to see what I was up to at the time. Nosey. Send you in there. I was liked. It wouldn’t be a shocker even if I personally wouldn’t ever go that far for anyone. I would rather her stay ignorant.

Whatever it was, when it comes right down to we didn’t really like each other much. We had nothing in common. We are not and were not driven by the same things. We were not on the same page. I think you were perfect for a few of those people I was staying away from. Is meeting was me trying to change some things in my life, direction, ethics, discipline, while at the same timea staying where I was/am and not moving to another city or across the country like some people do. I was not ashamed of any aspects of my life, I didn’t need to do that like some people I have known. That’s why we even met in the first place. That was was a few years after breaking free, being alone for a few years, next step….

Thinking back on it, I often wonder how different my life would be right now, had we not gotten together on a “personal” level or beyond very early into it.

I don’t think I would be as hated, that’s for damn sure. I might have no haters. I have never experienced the extreme levels of hate from so many people than I did from being associated with you. That includes from people long after who had nothing to do with it, and YOU LEFT ME. It’s not like I dropped you like a p************ after using you. You left me.