i am in a friend group with two other people who like each other more than they like me. it’s annoying: they like me enough to message me, to say kind things, to ask me how i’m doing, but there is a palpable warmth that i don’t receive. that missing thing is growing bigger every day. i can’t see myself staying close friends with these people. i’m already distancing myself emotionally before the inevitable heartbreak happens. i’m already mourning the loss to prepare myself for how devastating this will be.