Towards the beginning of my senior year of high school, I had began to hang out with a friend that I hadn’t seen for a good part of the summer. We began to hang out a lot again like we used to. My friend (Let’s call him Kams.) Began to tell me about a possible new lady companion in his life. With Kams he has had a lot of random girls with zero personality and just overall uninteresting qualities. Then one day I’m playing PlayStation with Kams, he says that a lady (Let’s call her fren.) Would be stopping by. So I expected the usual, shake her hand, smile politely and subtly make fun of her without her even realizing. Then I met Fren. She immediately caught my attention, she had beautiful hair and a smile that when you see it makes you want to give her everything. I had met Fren at a football game once previously but because of my general disinterest in whatever dumb chick Kams had that day I pretty much said hi and went back to minding my own business and watching the game. But the day she came over to Kams’ house I fell head over heals in love with her. She had great taste in music, she was polite and most of all she had personality. She made me laugh and I made her laugh and we seemed to get along. That fall had been pretty eventful a lot of school events. She came to the school talent show and watched me Clarisse and perform but mainly came because kames was performing in many acts. After the show she and I rode in a car together to meet a large group at a local restaurant, she proceeded to tell me the reasons she was growing frustrated with kames, and also shared a few stories about the men who treated her badly in the past. I said that if I had a woman as cool or as gorgeous as her I wouldn’t do a thing to mess it up. She told me that I simply wasn’t her type but that I was a great person who will make someone very happy one day. I’m not so sure why this woman affected me the way she did, we never dated but she broke my heart. I couldn’t stop smiling when I was around. At one point she, Kams and I smoked a little weed. It was like I was higher when I was with her. I slow danced with her at Homecoming, and even though I’ve never been a lady killer I’ve had a few slow dances but this one was different. There was no forced small talk, the conversation flowed naturally. When my hands were on her hips it gave a brief feeling of happiness that I’ve never felt at any other point in my life. It may not make a lot of sense but when my hands were on her hips it just felt right. Her eyes were glistening and she had me hypnotized. I guess the thing I wonder after typing all that is why would a woman chase after a guy that has little interest in you. Kams wasn’t really into her and that drove me crazy. He could have been the luckiest guy in the world and he talked about her like she was just some other random skank. He would brag to me and his other friends, he’d say things like “Yeah, she sucked my d***.” When he’d say those things I felt physically ill. Lauren never knew my feelings for her even if she did she had no idea how intense those feelings were. Now she’s with a new guy, she never talks to me or Kams or really anyone from my group of friends. I haven’t spoken to her in a long time. I guess she’s content with what she has, where she is, and who she’s with. And me being no part of her life seems to in no way affect her. I guess that’s a funny thing about life, Sometimes the people who mean the world to you don’t give a s*** about you. Sometimes almost a year later I still think about her. I guess that’s my confession, my heart was destroyed by a woman who I never dated.
