I want a strong man to take care of me, love me, tell me what I should be doing, tell me I’m beautiful and that I please him. I want him to protect me in every way and when he wants to have pleasure I’d serve his needs as best as I could and he would be happy. I want to be grateful for him and cook him extravagant meals. He would be grateful that I am so obedient and like to wear a collar symbolizing his ownership of me. Yet he would accept that I am who I am and he would train me to be a perfect woman and make sure that I stay healthy. He could show me off to his friends or co-workers in any outfit he’d like me to wear and we would act completely fitting to society in public but at home he would be in charge of me and walk me around on a leash and punish me if I have acted against him…in a stern, rough yet loving way.
I want this so bad that I want to cry because I love my boyfriend and I would love to marry him but he will not be this kind of man even though he can still turn me on. I don’t want my own career even though I have a degree. I don’t want to worry about kids even though everyone says I will have beautiful children, or be independent even though everyone says I should be. I want to live for the man who owns me, shows me off and loves me because I am obedient, beautiful, smart and serve him well.
Is there something wrong with me?
