i relapsed on speed 3 weeks ago and i can feel my life s********** outta control..and i dont have the want to stop or change it.. Damn it.
For the past three days Ive been crying, throwing up and sleeping.I cant eat, I can barely stop crying for five mins. I really wanna die, Ive been resisting the urge to cut myself or physically hurt myself.God I’m so depressed.I really just wanna sleep forever, I don’t wanna deal with everything anymore.I’m tired of being alone damnit! I’m tired of everything…
I cant have the one thing thats ever made anything better.
I’m tired of being lied to..
I’m tired of living…
